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My life is very wonderful. Almost as wonderful as giving a emo kid scissors and letting then run with it.
About Me
"The worst catagories in life are: would have, could have, and should have"
Those words have been my motto for awhile now. Funny how they aren't even my orginal words. but I agree completely.
I believe that perfection is the boringest thing you can have. And if you think you are too high up, and don't bother looking down, it may hurt more than you expect when you crash and fall.
The most beautiful things can only been seen by the heart, not by the eyes.
Oh wait, that was my deep side, wait till you see my other side. Heh, I said deep xD.
If you get me angry I'll shove a fork up you Hu-ha and spit on your back while you walk away in pain, and I laugh. REAL HARD.
But don't feel bad, I'll never talk behind your back, if I don't like you, I'll just say it to your face, and if I REALLY don't like you, I'll even slap it while I'm at it.
Im generous, I save you all the pondering.
Love is so beautiful isn't it? Who haven't had those moments of the most painful heartache as a prize for the most warming moments? If your precious years didn't have those turned up-side-down waves and just a peaceful flow, then that's real sad.
Didn't it feel so much better to have a good laugh after you got rejected then to wonder what would have happened if you had the guts to let those annoying voices giving you insomnia out?
Some people may call me bipolar, but I call it, being human.
4-28
Tuesday, April 28, 2009, 10:23 AM
Amazing how much i procrastinate like a pro when It comes Chinese class... I find it more difficult to write in Chinese than English now =P (at least when it comes to Chinese class work).\
Well, I guess I get to blog about my week... er.. end? My week was too boring. SO Friday = procrastination on myspace> Chris called me at like 1:30 but I had my cell on silent and he was being an asshole later by keep on ignoring my calls and text and when he finally picked up hung up on me mid-sentence... wtf?? Then he texted me yesterday and called me when he was like driving or something. Sometimes I feel like I am his last resort, just when he is bored and no one else to talk to... whatevs -__-.
Not that I give too much of a damn anyways.
Guess I kinda skipped Saturday and Sunday =P.
So Saturday, woke up at like 10 but end up arriving at the hiking trail in Los Gatos at around 11.. then hiking as usual, gosh no matter how much hiking I do I am still so fat >[[. But I REFUSE TO RUN EVEN FOR THE SAKE OF NOT HAVING LAYERS OF EPIDERMIS SPILLING OUT OF MY SWIM SUIT IN TWO WEEKS FOR SWIMMING IN PE!!!!!!!
Then I went to art class, so norm, checked out the dollar store next door while waiting for my life to pick me up and they actually have pretty cute (useless) things there.
And Audrey came over to go see Derek's lil' concert thing with me ^___^ Haven't seen her in awhile, but she look just as I guessed I guess. Rebel with all that hair dye and chains and heavy makeup (I shouldn't be talking..) and well... I guess the place was kinda small but kinda cozy looking (not to me but maybe to people who hang there all the time) remind me of the 6th grade daycare/ lounge we use to have in MCS... except much bigger and better looking. The music was more Audrey than sue but that was okay. I had an asian scene kid overload and she had an white hard rock kid overload so it worked out... Derek's show was last so... like 10:30 to 11:00 pm? My bitchy mom won't let me stay which kinda just killed the purpose of going... what a flammofemaledog.
The whole time Audrey kept on reminding me that JUnryl is gay just to see me get all 6th-grade-Austin, and we were talking about the stupid moments of MCS I guess it was interesting to see things from a different view after 3 years passed. LOL @ Crystal light + hair.
And I swear God is trying to tell me something... Because after spending time with Audrey and having her tell about about Junryl and his gayness (literally) I went asian gambling (so my mom let me go asian gamble till like 1am but won't let me stay and watch Derek's performance at 11... wtf??) and ironically enough, the were telling me how they think Eric might be gay... I keep on telling them I'll believe it when i see it... GOD WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME???
And a brief update on yesterday... er... well, switched seats in English and since it was the last 6 weeks we get to choose our own seat... And since I'm sue and sue kinda rhymes with not thinking i decided to choose the seat smack on front of Mr. Rector... Goodbye sleepy time... And he said if he ever catches me talking to Megan or Izzy during class he's gonna make me sit next to Gustavo O___O and that i will have to feel his presence in all 5 senses except for one ( I WILL NEVER TASTE GUSTAVO >[) Think i might just not talk this once for the sake of my fear of sitting next to Gustavo.............................. *shivers and twitches*
Then Ashley finally told me she got her phone fixed so I end up texting her instead of studying most of the night and failing my math test this morning... I told her how i hate this year the most because 6 weeks before the year end, and I made NO progress whats so ever...
She told me I really should just open my usually big fat and loud beyond repair mouth and talk to "him". And how she quoted from somone else " one of the worst categories in life are: could have, would have, and should have"
I wish I can do that... but it's like I'm Sue antisue when i see him...
AND NO YOU WILL NOT TELL YOU WHO HE IS... IF HE EXISTED WHICH HE DOESNT!! JUST A SHEER IMAGINATION!!! STOP THINKING I LIKE SOMEONE >[[[[[
okay class is about to end... okthxbye (god I'm starting to sound like that Jeffrey Chang -___-)
4-23-09
Monday, April 20, 2009, 7:01 PM
I guess I'll give a quick highlight of last week =P.
SO basically my dad came and I went to Fremont on Friday since his hotel was there. Didn't really get to see him but I did manage to get my photoshop installed (illegally of course) and ate some REAL chinese food, well as real as you can get in the U.S anyways. My gave me some super expensive pearls which was a big disappointment since I can't even sell it n ebay because the proof is in Chinese and we all know chinese people won't buy real pearls on ebay =P. So I'm gonna see what I can do wh it I guess.
Then Sunday we took him to Sanata Row and I was kinda sad at first we didn't get a chance to go shopping(haha yes, I'm so evil) but then the next day my mom said he left me 200 dollars. Yay! but my mom is "keeping" 150 of that "for me"
Oh well, and I kinda failed all my SAT practice tests. I'm such a noob =___=
It's like 5million degrees this week, I'm on th verge of dying from heat stroke each day.
Career day on tuesday: 1. Small business, pretty boring; 2. Fashion design, that was pretty fun; 3. photography, a bit boring i guess.
OMG
i totally forgot
on sunday, when I was in the Great Mall (for all of you great mall haters, I get twice as much cloths because I only have to pay 1/2 as much money for each, so yea, I win, the end) And I was in icings, there was three (hot xD) fobby guy all looking at earings and discussing it like a political issue, I didn't know whether to A. Laugh like a hyena; B. Take a pics and post it on this blog; or C. stare with a very startled eyebrow.
Haha, just a little side note here.
And Wednesday I literally felt like fainting in WebDesign class and I had Brian constantly throwing paper at my back whcih totally was like =___=
Haha he tried to invade my computer with his mouse again but too bad my computer was forzen xD.
And we are doing a lil "choose your own adventure" thing with flash, and I was on Marajuwana (mariujana) that day or something and decide to come up with this super complex idea only to realize after he approved it (can't change) that I am going to have to draw EVERY FRICKIN SCENE!!) -__-
Im not very smart i guess....
Well, that shouldn't really be a shock either =P.
And oh, I finally found out that ^////^ is kinda like a lil blushing person, I know, I don;t know my emicons, I fail as a f0b...
Teehee~ I'm in a good mood right now for pathetic reasons I shall not share with the world.
But I am.
And free food today in English!!!
I hope they bring enough, I didn't bring lunch haha.
Ah I'm in CHinese class right now, Gosh Mrs.Fan is going on and on about some chinese contest =__=
omg, speaking of which, i have NO IDEA what to do for my final project for the CHinese novel, seriously... Does she seriously want me to make a video about a guy who almost gets raped by a girl and lies about having AIDS to escape???
Haha, I should just by the DVD of the drama and turn it in as my "report"
Haha, Yes, And when I get it back I shall watch it ^___^
I also NEED to borrow Wolf's Temptation(her other really famous book) and the second series of "He is cool"
Yup Yup, okay, I think I need to present my chinese vs American style of SAT examination essay thing now
Baibai
4-14-09
Tuesday, April 14, 2009, 7:54 PM
Yesterday I had another "huge" fight with my mom. Not a big deal anymore since I'm so used to them. Speaking of parents, my dad is coming to the U.S this Thursday. Kind last minute since I was in L.A last week so he couldn't tell me. I could have asked him to bring soooo much stuff for me haha. Well... okay not really, seriously "dad, can you get me one of those really cute fluffy skirts that's really cute and only can get in China?" Really? haha.
Sonia kept on rubbing Eric in my face today on aim haha
soniay77 (7:20:21 PM): too bad ur spring break wasnt this week
soniay77 (7:20:28 PM): cuz we went hiking with eric.
soniay77 (7:20:28 PM): :[
MeI mEi xOxO (7:20:33 PM): omg
soniay77 (7:20:34 PM): u would want that,
MeI mEi xOxO (7:20:34 PM): ><
MeI mEi xOxO (7:20:37 PM): !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
soniay77 (7:20:45 PM): and im at his house right now,
=____=
And that's just the 1st 5 minute...
oh well, not much I can do about it =P
I am really obsessed with the song love story by Taylor Swift even though I usually don't listen to American music.
It's rrrreeeaaallllyyyy good through ^__^
Haha I have been pigging out ever since I went to Disney since I got used to eating alot during that time xDD
Fatty ><
4-12-09
Sunday, April 12, 2009, 2:58 PM
*sigh*
Spring break is so boring this year.
Yea i went to LA and all but that was boring too =P
And i ate sooo much during the trip
fatty ><
Spent the 10hr ar rie (5 hr to there and another 5 back) reading weird Teen books that hopefully is exaggerated. I really don't want to think that any HS is anywhere NEAR as "active and mature" as those books describe people to be -__-
WAAAAAAAAA
omg my life is so boring
i remember when i wish my life would have less drama back in 6th grade and now that i got that i'm still not as happy
I will never be satified im such a spoiled child haha xD
oh the irony
I remember my "zao-zao" journal back in 6th grade lol
good times.
WHat happened to it anyways?
Oh thats right, Darion tossed it away hoping i wuld get over my obsession
guess it didnt work lol
He should have kept it and used it against me haha stupid Darion
Okay not really considering i showed it to everyone and Didn't care who i bitched about.
WHat happened to that sue?
That sue who didn't care who she crossed and had to get her feelings out.
Now I'm just some shallow wannabe coward who is scared what people think of me althrough i keep on trying to tell myself i don't care and is afraid to speak my mind and hide beneathe layers of makeup.
COmpared to that hideous ugly monster back in MIddle school who would do anything and share her deepest most intense thought and was the deepest person alive and didn't care how many people would hate her and who she would cross to get her feelings acrossed to the world
Wow...
I am so different from who i used to be
and the worse thing is, I dont know hwich one i like better, even if i did, I dont know what i can do about it
*bangs head*
Okay, too deep though
still need to clean my room...
Yea, boring break, werd book about active teens, story of my life
4-1-09
Wednesday, April 1, 2009, 6:55 PM
rawr...
my computer was broken all last week and it hella sucked
well basically this week a bunch of test and also have to cram studying for math SAT 1C into my schedule =___=
and today's debate in WOrld Geo was kinda fun i guess, at first i thought wouldn't have enough to say but then 10minute into the debate i was sooo into it and hecka sucks when he doesnt give you enough time to address your point =P
and on my way hoe some dude driving down the rode hit on me O_____O
wtf??
oh well, wouldn't even see his face since he drove off too fast.
I seriously should get off and go study right now...
*sigh*
SO much test this week T^T