Hello.
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My life is very wonderful. Almost as wonderful as giving a emo kid scissors and letting then run with it.
About Me
"The worst catagories in life are: would have, could have, and should have"
Those words have been my motto for awhile now. Funny how they aren't even my orginal words. but I agree completely.
I believe that perfection is the boringest thing you can have. And if you think you are too high up, and don't bother looking down, it may hurt more than you expect when you crash and fall.
The most beautiful things can only been seen by the heart, not by the eyes.
Oh wait, that was my deep side, wait till you see my other side. Heh, I said deep xD.
If you get me angry I'll shove a fork up you Hu-ha and spit on your back while you walk away in pain, and I laugh. REAL HARD.
But don't feel bad, I'll never talk behind your back, if I don't like you, I'll just say it to your face, and if I REALLY don't like you, I'll even slap it while I'm at it.
Im generous, I save you all the pondering.
Love is so beautiful isn't it? Who haven't had those moments of the most painful heartache as a prize for the most warming moments? If your precious years didn't have those turned up-side-down waves and just a peaceful flow, then that's real sad.
Didn't it feel so much better to have a good laugh after you got rejected then to wonder what would have happened if you had the guts to let those annoying voices giving you insomnia out?
Some people may call me bipolar, but I call it, being human.
Friday, May 15, 2009, 1:48 PM
Oh gee. I'm blogging more and more now, which means my life is getting more and more interesting... Or less and less interesting =P. Ah whatevs =P. Maybe I should get a new blog layout like everyone else I'm subscribing is doing. Oh baii <3 I'll pay a visit to createblog when I have the time..
Funny how the more this evil woman I am forced to call my mother forces me to do good in school, the less I feel like doing anything. RIght now, all I want is to get out of that house and go somewhere else. My dream University is actually UCLA. That place just seem like everything I wanted. But right now, I'm most looking forward to just getting out of the control of that evil woman.
Heh, okay so next week for memorial day, we may go rafting. We = my family + Sonia's family + maybe Baron's family? Okai I personally don't care about Baron at all but if his family go maybe Erik may go... Everyone is telling me Erik may be gay but I'll believe it when I see it myself... Or maybe not even then -___- Whatever, crush my dreams God!! Maybe he's bi, that'll be hot... Oh My... WHat the hell am I saying? I'm really thinking that now??? GO AWAI STUPID THOUGHTS!!!
Last night I had a weirdie dream. It was more of a flashback to MCS. I remember when I ran and hid behind the staircase in daycare while everyone tried to find me and at the same time Audrey was singing aloud that song from P!ATD I forgot the name but that's not important, because I remember the lyrics and it went like "We are still so young... Desperate for attention..." Hmmm... Maybe That IS why I did it... the running awai and outbreaks... SO what about now? What am I doing now?
Then today, since Vivian payed for my soda last Friday, I had to come to school without makeup today. How stupid since I lost all my money that day anyways so might as well payed for that soda myself*shrugs*. It felt really weird... Like I forgot to bring my homework or something. Then she HAD to tell everyone about it and everyone was all going "Oh yea... you look better..." Idk, what were they suppose to say? "Oh ewww, you need makeup to cover up your ugliness"? Whatevs... At least saved me some time during P.E.
When we were in the locker taking a shower after PE (as awkward as that sound) I told Ida how I was born in England and then we begin talking.. Okay I begin to talk about how my mom got an abortion 1/2 a year before she was pregnant with me and then 1/2 year later, when she got pregnant with me. she only had me because she didn't want to keep on getting abortions... Wow... I feel so loved right now... My mom tried to get rid of me once and my dad abandoned me till when I was 9.. Oh Babii... What loving parents I have...
I'm in web design right now.. finally finished with my project.. We were suppose to follow a tutorial and make a game but I fail at making games so I kinda just ripped it off the internet and modified it, Im such a good student <3.
10 more minute before class get out yay!! Then I have to go come and face my scary evil mother.. *shivers and twitches*