Hello.
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My life is very wonderful. Almost as wonderful as giving a emo kid scissors and letting then run with it.
About Me
"The worst catagories in life are: would have, could have, and should have"
Those words have been my motto for awhile now. Funny how they aren't even my orginal words. but I agree completely.
I believe that perfection is the boringest thing you can have. And if you think you are too high up, and don't bother looking down, it may hurt more than you expect when you crash and fall.
The most beautiful things can only been seen by the heart, not by the eyes.
Oh wait, that was my deep side, wait till you see my other side. Heh, I said deep xD.
If you get me angry I'll shove a fork up you Hu-ha and spit on your back while you walk away in pain, and I laugh. REAL HARD.
But don't feel bad, I'll never talk behind your back, if I don't like you, I'll just say it to your face, and if I REALLY don't like you, I'll even slap it while I'm at it.
Im generous, I save you all the pondering.
Love is so beautiful isn't it? Who haven't had those moments of the most painful heartache as a prize for the most warming moments? If your precious years didn't have those turned up-side-down waves and just a peaceful flow, then that's real sad.
Didn't it feel so much better to have a good laugh after you got rejected then to wonder what would have happened if you had the guts to let those annoying voices giving you insomnia out?
Some people may call me bipolar, but I call it, being human.
cuss my a.. I mean butt out
Friday, May 29, 2009, 3:52 PM
Trying not to cuss is so hard. Who ever invented cussing anyways? I'd like to know.
This is not a good week for my electronics. FIrst my cell phone then my ipod, how am I gonna survive without my babies? I gained so much weight this week ><
IM planning a surprise part fr a certain someone, and to get all of u guys hpe up, its not a bday part ^^.
Good thing is my mom and i isnt fighting anymore, so at least I dont have the earge to burn a hole in ur wall each day. That's good right
Here's the song btw:
oh, btw: I MIGHT get a dog. I like Connie's first reaction:
"IM getting a dog"
"WAT??? OMG NO!!! YOU CANT DO THAT! THATS TOO CRUEL!!"
Thx alot Connie xD
SF weekend
Tuesday, May 26, 2009, 11:04 AM
Had one of the worst/ best weekend ever.. I don't know where to start...
Howabout Friday? since all I did was waste my time online, Im such a achiever right?
Then On Saturday, my mom dragged me and Sonia to Golf with her -___-. After that we went to eat a buffet in El Camino, it was Mongolian and REALLY REALLY good!! Teehee~ Im such a fatii <3
Then after that we went movie hopping from Angels and Demons to the Night at the Museum 2 until like 1am ^^
The next morning I woke up at 8 and just laied in my bed reading (old Clique books teehee~) until my mom knocked at my door around 10 o'clock telling me we are going to SF with Sonia, Ali and her nefew Eric... Here's my reaction ----> O______O
I haven't seen Eric for months.. Well I only seen him once anyways but whatever.
And he is soo cute <3 I know, if he's reading this... Im screwed.
ANyways, at first it was a bit weird when we first arrived at his house. We ent to SF to see a Latin America Festival, well since we are asian we parked at best buy to save money and went in so it look like we were shopping there. We camera whored on the mac there for half an hour. That was crazyyyy fun
THe festival was kinda boring but oh well *shrugs* the adults went to dinner while me and Eric ans Sonia went shopping <3333333
I skipped dinner so i can use that 5 dollars for cloth lol.
And then we wnet to Eric's house for asian gamble.
Te kids forced us to play with them but after 10 minute, their short attention spanned head difted off and went to play video games outside so me and Eric was all playing with his Iphone in the room when our parents got all paranoid and made such a big deal out of it and I was sooooooo embarrassed -___-. Now I don't know what to say to him the next time I see him... It was so fcking embarrasing... Oh wait... Im trying not to cuss these days.. sorry...
Anyways, and then something else happened that maybe I'll look back and laugh at someday but.... not now... Now, i Just simply dont want to think back at it...
Anyways, MOnday, fight with mom.. typical, wasted the whole day basically...
And today in school... Nothing special except pig dissection, oh babii <3
Okai Im done
Peace
Tuesday, May 19, 2009, 7:44 PM
Im so fricking full right now I think I might have a top model moment... The ugly chyme side of models.. IM such a pig, that should be no surprise to you.
I did nothing during the weekend except procrastinate and procrastinate some more. Bought a new one piece swimsuit for 12 dollars. Screw Macy's, the magic of old Navy's ;)))
Scientists are right on the fact that your personality changes during your teen years. I use to think free time and break is a time to do extra homework and study for tests 3 months away. Now it's time to do homework that I was too lazy to do last night and study for tests that's 20minutes away.
I totally failed my Math test today. Mr. Bingham was all "oh it's easy, it's just like the STAR test" pshhhhh. The STAR test was multiple choice, was this muliple choice?? Okay, the choice was basically do or fail... No wait, actually there was no choice.. just, fail, no other possible choice.
CHinese... we presented the how chinese effected my life" project that I never did... oops
AT lunch I was all high and screaming "Bangkok" out loud while attempting to do my english homework I like how COnnie and Hansen was both just going "oh yea... he's collecting it today... yup" and won't help me with it ><
English, watched Great Expectation, Mr. Rector pointed out how guys always end up liking the girl who slaps him across the face and says she hate him... Hmmmmm.. maybe I should do that... Then he'd slap me back and tell me he hate me and mean it... And I'll still like him... Guess it only works when the good looking one does it...
Bio, looked at live animals samples today.. wait... they weren't alive... They were preserved... IDK which is worse... And AJ pointed out how a mouse have balls but no Penis... How interesting... Very observant... Ugggghhhh I got the last test in bio Thursday and I am soooo procrastinating as usual. FUnny you'd think I will know all about what happens when a googo goes inside a Hooha. But no, Im still gonna fail it.
ahhhh
FML
Friday, May 15, 2009, 1:48 PM
Oh gee. I'm blogging more and more now, which means my life is getting more and more interesting... Or less and less interesting =P. Ah whatevs =P. Maybe I should get a new blog layout like everyone else I'm subscribing is doing. Oh baii <3 I'll pay a visit to createblog when I have the time..
Funny how the more this evil woman I am forced to call my mother forces me to do good in school, the less I feel like doing anything. RIght now, all I want is to get out of that house and go somewhere else. My dream University is actually UCLA. That place just seem like everything I wanted. But right now, I'm most looking forward to just getting out of the control of that evil woman.
Heh, okay so next week for memorial day, we may go rafting. We = my family + Sonia's family + maybe Baron's family? Okai I personally don't care about Baron at all but if his family go maybe Erik may go... Everyone is telling me Erik may be gay but I'll believe it when I see it myself... Or maybe not even then -___- Whatever, crush my dreams God!! Maybe he's bi, that'll be hot... Oh My... WHat the hell am I saying? I'm really thinking that now??? GO AWAI STUPID THOUGHTS!!!
Last night I had a weirdie dream. It was more of a flashback to MCS. I remember when I ran and hid behind the staircase in daycare while everyone tried to find me and at the same time Audrey was singing aloud that song from P!ATD I forgot the name but that's not important, because I remember the lyrics and it went like "We are still so young... Desperate for attention..." Hmmm... Maybe That IS why I did it... the running awai and outbreaks... SO what about now? What am I doing now?
Then today, since Vivian payed for my soda last Friday, I had to come to school without makeup today. How stupid since I lost all my money that day anyways so might as well payed for that soda myself*shrugs*. It felt really weird... Like I forgot to bring my homework or something. Then she HAD to tell everyone about it and everyone was all going "Oh yea... you look better..." Idk, what were they suppose to say? "Oh ewww, you need makeup to cover up your ugliness"? Whatevs... At least saved me some time during P.E.
When we were in the locker taking a shower after PE (as awkward as that sound) I told Ida how I was born in England and then we begin talking.. Okay I begin to talk about how my mom got an abortion 1/2 a year before she was pregnant with me and then 1/2 year later, when she got pregnant with me. she only had me because she didn't want to keep on getting abortions... Wow... I feel so loved right now... My mom tried to get rid of me once and my dad abandoned me till when I was 9.. Oh Babii... What loving parents I have...
I'm in web design right now.. finally finished with my project.. We were suppose to follow a tutorial and make a game but I fail at making games so I kinda just ripped it off the internet and modified it, Im such a good student <3.
10 more minute before class get out yay!! Then I have to go come and face my scary evil mother.. *shivers and twitches*
Wednesday, May 13, 2009, 7:35 PM
Seems kinda early to blog about my week. BUt idk why Im in a bloggy mood today =P
I guess I can be like those weird people who consider Sunday as the begining of the week and tell you about my week so far..
alright... let's see... Irony is a bitch. That's just a fact. Mother's day begin the tensing fight I have been having with my mom this whole week. Yup, Irony's a bitch alright.
Then later that night Chris texted me and we haven't talked for a long time so after 11pm due to my retarded phone curfew he called me since that was the only way I can reach the outside world after 11 (so much for the curfew mom...)
So we stayed up till nearly 2 having Karaoke over the phone... he's not kidding when he say he can hog the mic... or phone... or whatever we were doing by singing songs back and force(mostly back... or forth... or whatever it is when he sings 10songs straight and I don't get a chance.." and strangly, the "begining" of the week, was the highlight of my week... how pathetic... Okay, Technically it was pass 12 so Monday... whatever...
And Monday was just so boring... Well it's a monday, whatever you expect I guess
Tuesday, started off my day bad by getting angry+disappointment+sad+fustrated by the same little thing that happens all the time that I shouldn't let bug me in the first place and yet it hits me smack above the left boob everyday (know your anatomies, or rather, just look down and see which organ is above the left boob...)
then there wasn't much to it except for this other thing that again I should be used to and shouldn't let it bug me in the first place but hits above the left boob everysingle day... no wonder people ways my boobs are even, what do you expect?
Yea I know, Im so obvious when it comes to what's bothering me.
I try to tell myself "Today is going to be better than the last" (quote Ashley) but it seems like the phrase "It's only gonna get worse." (quote steven) seem to be more and more true each day, totally sucks.
and Today was just basically STAR testing, went downtown to eat lunch with Izzy, I seriously did not know you can find lunch for under double digit in Saratoga downtown... how special. THen I had to come home and more testing, well okay, math SAT subject 2 practice test, whatever, did so bad... Thanks mom, my self esteem is higher now...
Then me and Ashley talked for like an hour about life and I guess that made me feel a bit better... for a bit...
and now here I am blogging about it
oh joy~
Saturday, May 9, 2009, 10:29 PM
All I can say about this week is..... Fck my life..
Okai, usually I would be telling you about the good and bad stuff for my week (not that you care, you are reading tis because you have no life and like to read about others who have no life) I'm just gonna sit here and waste the 29minute I have before my computer turns off because of a evil invention called parental control and a even eviler invention called mom (how ironic that mother's day is tomorrow)
Okai, here we go, I got my math test back this week, I had a 90%, and was happy... until I realized, when the hell did my standard get so low? FML
Then 6 week progress report came out, and my English grade went down a whole Letter grade ( from A to B) because of my participation point, and Mr. Rector wanted to make sure my mom murders me so he commented on the side (excessive talking and sleeping in class. No Mr. Rector, the comment should be "I am sorry for making your daughter's learning experience so painful she have to get away from it in her sleep, shame on me) FML
Then on Thursday I did something I regret for life that I will not share with you
and to make matters worse, Because of E(vil) Rector lowered my grade so Badly in English, And there was some paper due that I left at home, I had to beg my perverted neighbor Steven to give me a ride home now I own him "favors" *shiver and twitches*
THEN, hen I thought I can finally have SOME peace in life my going to watch 17 again on Friday, I lost my wallet along with my keys, and this evil woman I am forced to call mother yelled at me for 3hours and I have 2 scratch marks on my right arm thanks to her "love and care"
FML
FU
Now Fck off
okai Im done
Thx for reading this wonderful blog, makes you wish your life was as great as mine right?
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